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"If every fool wore a crown, we'd ll be kings." -welsh proverb-

I had never understood forgiveness.. from the root word forgive, it means: 1.] To grant pardon for or remission of (something). 2.] To cease to blame or feel resentment against. 3.] To remit as a debt. 4.] To show forgiveness. I don't know, I'm not even sure what I'm doing right now, where I'm going to, and what my point is, exactly. Forgive? What is this 7 letter word, that is so easy to say but so hard to do, signify? doesn't forgiveness just invite offense? I know this sounds so "pilosopa" but we read that we ought to forgive are enemies but we do not read that we ought to forgive are friends. Why is it easier to forgive an enemy than a friend? Why, even if we forget and forgive, we will never really drop the habit of referring to the matter now and then, right? So why do we still consent to forgive? We forgive because what (?), for the sake of forgiving? But deep inside.. there is still a tinge of hurt, that will or might grow every minute or more.. So what's that? Mere pretension? That won't help at all. Besides, you're bound to bluff soon... I mean, give me a break! Maybe because I, the injured, couldn't read their heArts, the reason why I just couldn't understand & and pardon. Why is it that when you don't forgive, you hurt yourself more than hurting the one who injured you and then it's you who's at fault if you do not forgive. Isn't it unfAir? Why do you have to suffer more than the person who has hurt you? Why do you have to be the one to bend down and the one to meet the other end? Aren't you supposed to be the one who's seated and doing nothing? Let them suffer for what they've done! It's not your fault.. I mean, right? They say it's pride who's driving me.. But, so what? Doesn't pride just protect your dignity? Why is life's game so unfair? Why is the winner still a loser and the loser still a winner? What's worst is that, you have to play the game wether you like it or not. If we want out, it is said that, we'll burn in hell and if we endure, we'd all be saving our souls. but isn't hell the place we dwell in? Why do we have to get through hell and put up with life's cruelty just to be able to reach heaven's throne? the fault of Adam and Eve is not ours. We weren't there when they ate that fruit. Why do we have to suffer their punishment? In the first place, why did God put that tree in the garden or that snake, anyway? If God is so powerful and that He can predict, He must've known the future ever since, I mean duhh, then why did He allow such a thing to happen? AND.. if He loved us so, why did He give us free will when He very well knows that will be having a hard time handling life? Is it because He doesn't suffer the way we suffer? He's a God! Can God feel like a human, anyhow? He even had to make His begotten Son suffer and die on the cross just to save us from our sins. What's God's story, anyway?

Let's get back to the subject at hand,

"but i say unto you, that whosoever is angry with his brother without a cause shall be in danger of the judgement." -ecclesiastes 2:14-

Forgiveness... Still I can't perceive the meaning of it nor grasp the idea.. So if anyone who's wise enough to convince me or can just simply answer me and might even dare to question me, please feel free to do so and comment on this entry.. So many questions, can't seem to find the answer.. I'm not God nor a god.. I'm not divine nor a holy spirit.. I'm human ("To err is human").. Permitted to be confounded.. I am but a fool..

"A fool may be known by six things: Anger, without cause; speech, without profit; change, without progress; inquiry, without object; putting trust in a stranger, and mistaking foes for friends." -Arabian proverb-

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